Forget and remember

Forget the things that made you sad. But never forget the things that made you glad. Forget the friends that proved untrue, lied to you and took advantage of you. But never forget those that stuck by you. Forget the troubles that have passed away, but never forget the blessings that come each day. And that's not just those material things or money. It is your life, to be able to live each and every day. It is a blessing from God that we must be thankful for it. Always remember that!

Where to study

I first planned to study in Pampanga City but a lot of things came up my mind when I was about to enroll myself and so I had to turn back and have decided to come home to my hometown. In my opinion is Pampanga not a good place for me, and to study there is not going to be easy because that place has so many temptations and it is expensive to live there. It's a party place. So if you're not from that place and you wanna study, you might consider going back home and study.

If you're in doubt that you might not focus on your study in that place, then better not to and leave at once. That's why I came here to Tacloban just to study because I want to get serious and focus on my study. This is na opportunity that I cannot just let go and later regret it. So good luck to me!

TOR

TOR means transcription of records, and in my case, it is a transcription of my college records. I got confused whether I need this. Maybe it was the person that I asked the other day at the Asian Foundation College that keeps me confused. I asked this person (a teacher or office administrator) about what is needed in order to enroll in the school. I told him I graduated from A.L.S., and that I have studied first year at ESSU Salcedo way back 2013 but hadn't finished the first semester. He said that I have to get the transcription of records from ESSU. But then I am being told also that TOR is only needed when you have finished at least the first semester in college, so that they know what units I have finished already and don't need to take again. But, sadly, I didn't finish anything at the college, because the Yolanda typhoon came and wiped all out. So I guess I won't need the TOR. Getting it won't be that easy for me. For one, many records have been destroyed by the typhoon. And also, if any records would be available, I would get them only after paying additional fees at the school. It seems useless to me to pay a fee for a record that says that I did not complete anything. So the best thing to do is not telling the new college that I studied in another college already. They will not know about it I think.

Writing and Travelling

Right now I am here in Borongan, Eastern Samar, in an Internet Cafe. I am writing blogs before I head  back home. I came all the way here just to rent a computer in order to write blogs. Well, I also travelled to Sanar because I thought I need a TOR, but I will write about that later.

I couldn't write blogs at home on my phone. Mobile internet just doesn't work on my phone. It's so hard if you're a blogger and you have no stable internet connection. Well that's how it is in the province anyway. But Tacloban City probably has a better internet connection since it's the main city. I think it depends what line you used. There are just the two main choices; Globe or Smart Wifi. I don't know yet which one is better in Tacloban, as this always depends on the location.

After writing my ideas, I will hurry to make sure I can ride a Jeepney back to Tacloban. The jeepney here runs only until 3pm only. I want to take it since it is cheaper than the Van-Van. Transporting in the province is not easy. There is no 24 hours rides here, unlike Manila. That's why when you plan to go to the main city you will have to travel early in the morning so you can get back on time and ride back home. I'm still adjusting with how it is to travel here as I am used to the Manila City way of travelling.

Lazy Sunday

Today is Sunday and I'm just here laying on this comfortable bed, with the air-con and TV switched on. I woke up at 7am. I called the front desk and ordered breakfast for myself. Ok, I'm at a hotel called the Z-Pad Residences right now. I've been staying here since Tuesday the 19th and will be checking out this coming Tuesday. I'm here for one week and it's gonna be over soon. The room I've gotten for myself comes up with free breakfast. So every morning I wake up just to order breakfast as I don't want to waste anything. The food I like most from the menu is the 'Beefsteak Tagalog'. This is so good that I can't get enough. Hence I eat that every morning since I am here. What do I do today? I just love this room. I might just stay here all day and night and wait for Monday so I can do more searching about school. Luckily I found already a student room so that I am not homeless when I leave this hotel.

Uncomfortable moment at the airport

April 19: When I was at the airport for travelling back to my hometown from Manila, there was a scary moment. I was so nervous thinking that my luggage might weight more than 20kg, which is the maximum allowed on my ticket. And I wasn't mistaken with my guts because all in my luggage weighted up to 33kg. I paid 6kg excess baggage and I brought the remaining 7kg as carry-on luggage up on the plane so that it won't cost me any more money. Glad there is always free 7kg carry-on luggage. The thing that made me so nervous was not having enough money for travelling. My pocket money left was only 3000 Peso which could have been enough for the trip only if I don't need to pay for the excess baggage. But I had to pay 2160 Peso for the excess baggage. Lesson learned! Excess baggage is much more expensive than prebooked baggage. If I had prebooked, the 30kg would cost only 500 Peso. Next time when taking an airplane, it is better to overestimate the weight of the baggage when you booked in a Travel agency, because when you underestimate the weight, you need to pay hefty fees at the airport.

Delayed Air Asia Flight

April 19: I was expecting that my flight would be at 3:40 pm. That is written on my travel Itinerary. Air Asia has just sent me a notification that my flight is retimed to 5 pm. This is unexpected for me. So at the moment I'm here in Pasay City at my cousin's apartment and I was planning to leave at 1 pm. But now I might stay a little bit longer, maybe I go around 2:30 pm then to get the flight at 5 pm. The airport is very close to Baclaran. I always choose to stay here in my cousin place in Baclaran when I travel back home to my province so that I'm always on time for my flight. It's a good thing that I have a cousin here, I can always come here and stay whenever I want.

The only thing I am worrying about now is that my flight might get cancelled, I'm confused with the situation. I couldn't check my email as I don't have internet connection at the moment. To make sure I don't miss my flight, I think about leaving early. Although I hate waiting in the airport.

Words and promises

Do not promise something you cannot really do because at the end you might be embarrassed in front of that person you happened to promise to. You must be abide by your words. Specially to the people that matter to you. Once you're true to yourself then those people around you will love you and trust you even more. Be true to yourself, that's what majority wants.

Sometimes we swear to others anything that we really cannot fulfill. It's because those words come out of our mouth without thinking. Think before you speak! Better not to speak when you're in doubt about what you're going to say. Because once you let words come out your mouth you cannot take it back and speak up another.

Also, you can't be harsh to anybody. Sometimes we say inappropriate things towards a person which we should not really be saying. What if those things being said to you? I'm sure you would not like it.

Studying in Tacloban

Today the weather is really hot. I was sweating a lot while doing my laundry. I'm exhausted organizing my stuff for my trip to Tacloban. Glad everything is being settled already, all I have to do now is to wait until my flight departs. Still sad though remembering what had happened the last few days but thinking of my trip to Tacloban just switching my mood to excitement.

I am thankful to be able to come home and study once again. I just thought that I'm not getting any younger I need to get serious with my life and focus onto something better that will later bring me a better life. I hope, being able to finished college, my future will be more exciting, with a better job, to be able to work in a big company with high salary. Everything is possible if you're a college graduate. I have tried college in the past but I always had to stop because of financials. So I hope I can do better this time, and get my college degree. Wish me luck!

Leaving drama

I hate it when a friend of mine can't understand my situation, and why I have to leave. I told her why I have to leave very soon. But seems she doesn't understand me. I did explain everything but rather than to support me in these difficult days, she replied me with long nonsense messages which I called drama. I am disappointed that she does not want to understand me and even told me our friendship is over. I did explain a lot of things why I have to leave. I have an opportunity to go to college in Tacloban but I need to organize a lot there, for school and searching a place to stay. Because I want to settle everything before the school starts. Is that hard to understand?

Her point is that I can't leave her behind because when I was all alone and was having problem with money she was there for me. She have rebuked me for what she have done for me back then. I have told more than a week ago that I will be leaving the place and go back home to province but she didn't do anything. Instead she parties with friends, spent all her money and now she's broke and can't fix the apartment before moving out. I waited for her to come to our apartment but she didn't even come, and now she's depressing me with her drama. I am really disappointed because I thought she was my real friend and will always understand me but seems I'm wrong.

To a friend

You made things difficult between the two of us. I did explain everything to you but it seems that you can't understand me. You didn't listen to what I've said to you. You behave like a hardheaded person, and it makes me sad because our 3 years of friendship has come to an end. I never thought it is going to stop like this. For the past 3 years, I considered you and M. as my two very best friends. I was fortunate to have you guys, but it seems that M. is the only one left for me as my friend. This hadn't happened if only you'd listen to my explanation. But what can I do when you really never listen to what other people are telling you?

You only care about your feelings. You think it's not hard for me to leave you? You're wrong because I have feelings for you, as we've been friends for 3 years which is a very long time of friendship for me. But you ended it! I just hope you later won't regret your decision because I have to move on. You said you're done with me and so I am. Later when you realize that I haven't done anything bad to you, maybe we will see each other by accident, but we will be strangers, not friend anymore. It is sad now, but I move on and I may not look back.

Wrong trust

Picture thanks to Liliana Sabato

Sometimes trusting people so much can lead you to trouble. No matter how nice you are to them, there can come the time that they are going to screw you. Because some people nowadays are just twofaced, evil creatures. No matter how nice you think you're to them they would never do the same thing to you. I'm a person who is not too nice to other people especially if they don't belong to my family, but I'm not a bad person either. I'm not selfish, in particular when I have little things to offer to a person. But my things got stolen twice by fake friends. No matter what gratitude you showed to someone, at the end that person may still betray you. If only we had the capability to read what is in people's mind, then there would be no problem at all.

College Search

I stopped college due to financial problems years ago. Now I want to go to college again next semester, but it is not easy for me to find the right college and the right course. I have been searching through Google but it seems that is not helpful. It doesn't give me enough answers. Many colleges in the Philippines have no website at all, and if they have one, then the website is poorly managed or is only directed towards investors, not towards students. I even sent messages to at least two colleges in Tacloban but until now I haven't received any reply from them. Hence, finding the right college is kind of stressful since it is one of the very important decisions in life. Well, I'm not complaining about it. I'm just explaining how searching a college works in the Philippines, and it is hard especially when you're far away from the place you're going to study. I decided to visit Tacloban to search on location for the right college, and I hope this is easier.

College is expected to be hard anyway, and there is never anything easy in this world. So searching the college is only the first step, and I will not give up on that. Everything is stressful in the Philippines! You need to secure the financials for the college, you need to choose the right college and the right course, you need to find a place to sleep near the college, and then you need to get good grades in topics that may not be your favorite, such as mathematics. Every course has mathematics, even if you job later has absolutely nothing to do with mathematics.

Sometimes you need to think first if the move you're about to make would either be worth it or not so that you know what to expect and not. College is stressful but if you really want to study first you have to try and do what's required and needed you to do. If you do it step by step, in small steps, then you might succeed. That's what I intend to do.

Easter with my cousin

I had a great time with my cousin Venus on Easter weekend. We did lots of fun stuff together. There was this moment when we played children games at SM mall and we felt like we were kids again. We watched the movie "Batman v Superman" which she enjoyed watching and so I did, even though for me, the movie wasn't really that surprising as the movie was given away in the trailer. I did mention it already in one of my previous blog post. But it was great that we could watch it together.

Besides movie and games we also ate dinner at T.G.I. Friday's, since I still had some gift certificates for that. Their food is really good but expensive. I had those baby back ribs (it's really called like that, no joke) and a glass of ice tea while my cousin ordered the pacific grilled pork chop and also a glass of ice tea. For desert we had ice cream. In my opinion, they serve the best food in town, it tastes really awesome. The only problem is the price. T.G.I. Friday's is expensive. But as we are Asian, we ordered only half each. That was still enough for us, and we had to pay only half. It was my first time to have such a fancy dinner with my cousin and same for my cousin. She told me to tell to the sponsor of the gift certificated: "THANK YOU!" We both are grateful for letting us dine in such a special way together. But how I wished my mom was around then so that I could treat her too :( She is just too far away living with her husband. I wish her well anyway and I love her. After dinner, we went to the seaside and sat there while watching the people walking by. There were also live bands. You could listen if you are into live bands and also you could eat. That's what we did on Easter weekend and it was fun. :)

Lost love

Have you ever been in a situation where you loved someone so deeply but that person didn't have the same feelings like you do? I think loving someone who doesn't love you back at all is stupidity. Why do you need to lower yourself for someone who doesn't like you? Why do we have to met someone that would only bring us suffering? Why does our heart have to pump for the wrong person? Isn't that crazy?

Nobody wants to feel pain, nobody wants to be brokenhearted at all. When is happens, we've been hurt. And we do not want another pain to feel but whenever our heart beats for someone we cannot stop it. We cannot help our self from falling in love. You must have control for yourself so that you do not feel the same pain you'd already experienced. Being in a relationship in the beginning is a lot of fun so treasure it while it lasts. But things can change unexpectedly, sometimes your partner will get tired of everything and leave you hanging. Is it unfair? Why would you even want a relationship that in the end you'll have to give up. So to those who love so deeply please have some love for yourself before someone. Don't forget to love yourself for your own good. Leave some for yourself!

Terrorists

Another terrorist bombing in Pakistan targeting Christian women and children at an open market on Easter Sunday. 69 dead 400 wounded. It looks like we are already in World War 3 and they are winning the war. Time to get serious and finish it!

Those who are in the higher position must do some action against these Muslim terrorists. We cannot just sit in one place waiting for these people to attack our country. Every leader of each country needs to be aware and think wisely about solutions so that these Muslim terrorist cannot get through to our country.

We do not want any of us get killed by them, and we cannot let them ruin any of our malls or our airports. We all know that they are targeting places with crowded people for their bombings. How awful! These kind of people should not be existing on this planet. But they exists anyway. Now all we need to do is to be aware of these Muslim terrorist.

We all know they have been attacking Europe, that is, Paris and Belgium. Europe must make some move so that they can prevent these terrorist from bombing their country. And the same holds for all countries. I don't know what's with these terrorist, they seem insane in their mind. No reasonable person can understand their motivation. What they do is not justified by Islam. It is not justified by anything. At the end all we can do is to pray that their aweful things do not to happen to us.