Sunday morning

Just got home from the church. It is Sunday morning here, so that means church day for us Christians. I admit I don't always attend mass, I rarely go. But I woke up early today, so I decided to go to church and it was good. The Weather seems fine today, the skies are cloudy. It didn't rain since earlier. I can feel the heat touches my skin. It's getting hot today. After washing laundry, so many clothes hanging outside to get dry. I think thick clothes easily get dry with this kind of weather. It is good, as I have my jeans washed, I hope everything gets dry before I leave. I don't like taking heavy wet clothes back to the city, as the clothes get smelly when they are not fully dry.

We all need this kind of sunny day here. Raining all the time is depressing. People here are more lazier when it is raining. They stay most of the time inside the house wasting their time waiting for better weather. So today is a good sunny day for us.

Jeans

I think I'm one of those jeans lovers who are obsessed of jeans. I really can't go out without wearing a comfortable denims. Whether I am traveling, going to school or on a wash day I always wear jeans. That's always my best choice. I am not a girly person when I am outside. People won't see me wearing skirts or short shorts or even a women dress.

I used to wear those women dresses few years ago, but I am just like the season, I've changed. Back then, I hated Jeans. I never wore one. It was only after typhoon Yolanda when I started wearing jeans because I lost all my other clothes in the typhoon. I got used to it, until it became my favorite attire. Jeans and long sleeves and a pair of shoes will always be my favorite. I can wear that everywhere, and jeans last longer than regular dresses. But it depends on your choices, if you go for a branded ones, then it will surely last long time. I have about 15 pairs of branded jeans, and I think for a women like me, those are enough.

Hurray, weekend

I am done with today's classes. It means my rest day begins today until Monday morning. I feel relieved, as I don't have to do anything. I just want to relax myself. Or maybe come home to Samar. I don't want to bore myself here at my place for doing nothing. Going to home is a great idea. I can eat my favorite fresh vegetables there.

It's better when I am at home. I don't have to worry about anything. Food is just there, and you don't have to go far to a mall just to get something to eat. Even vegetables are nearby our house. It is so easy living in the province. The sea is just there, and you can easily go and catch fishes. And then your day is solved. You won't be depressed if you know how to live as a real province person. I can do what a province girl is capable of doing, for instance I know how to catch fishes. The only reason I don't go to the sea that often is because I don't want to get darker. My skin tan is already dark. I have to stay away from the sun for a while.

Lack of energy

I feel like I needed a body massage right now, as my back is hurting, and my body doesn't seems to have much energy. I am thinking of making a cup of coffee which I barely do, I don't really drink coffee. I never liked coffee, but at times like this, I feel like I really need one.

I tried going back to sleep, but my mind didn't want to stop thinking randomly, so I decided to just write, while I am still figuring out what to do. If only I can sleep more, I could, as I don't have to go to school now since my class will start at 5 pm this afternoon. But if I go back to bed, I will only laying awake, but not sleeping, I know, I've been through this number of times. 

It's almost 9am here, I do have enough time to prepare. I think if I eat something, as this could help me to gain some energy to begin my day. 

Sleepless night

Have you ever been in a situation where you are in bed already but couldn't sleep because too many random thoughts coming to your mind? Suffering from over-thinking is unhelpful and can cause harm such as lack of sleep and depressions.

This rarely happens to me when I am about to sleep: That feeling when you're too tired and ready for some good night sleep, but suddenly your mind starts circulating and makes you wide awake. I had this scenario last night. When I am in a situation like this, I don't feel tired just yet, my body goes back to being fine as if I had not been a tiring day. It is only in the morning when I wake up from too little sleep that I feel so weak, just like now. My body needs more sleep! I feel like I don't even have enough energy to start the my day. I hate this! I want to stop myself from thinking too much, but sometimes there's no way I can avoid it when depression is attacking me.

Nicer weather

The weather is getting better. Going back home from school without flooding all over the road makes me happy. The past few days, it was worse: I walked on the road with water up to my ankle, my shoes and jeans got wet and dirty. That time it keeped on raining. I was soaked when I reached my place. I had no way to dry my shoes, so I was devastated from what happened. I never liked when my jeans and shoes get so dirty.

Glad today the skies was bright and it didn't rain. But yesterday, when it was raining, I forgot taking my umbrella with me, that's why I got so wet. I'm glad I didn't catched cold from that night. Next time I will not forget to bring an umbrella. I'll make sure to always have it on my bag. But I hope the raining stops for this month, so that I will not have a problem going to school.

Cold night and rain

Just another cold night for me here. As usual, my fan is off. The Rain has not stopped since morning, the streets outside my place is already flooding from too much rains. I hope this stops tonight as I'd be going to school tomorrow. If this continues to rain, I might have a problem going to school tomorrow. I hate it when my shoes get too wet, since I will be sitting in school all day with wet feet.

Before I get to the cab and jeepney station, first I need to walk for about five minutes. From there I can ride to town. Normally, this short walk is no problem as I am used to it already. But when it is flooded, it's difficult to walk there with dry feet. Shoes also get very dirty in rain. I hate the rain, it can ruins my day so quickly. Rain itself is not so bad, when you have clean streets, but it depends on which road you walk. Mine is too dirty and too wet.