Stupidity

I am wandering hungry and dizzy through the streets. How come this had to happen to me? I feel like I am one of these homeless people at the street right now. The money I have with me are just coins, not enough for bread or water. I am saving the coins for my transport back to my boarding house. I feel so weak, and thirsty, I haven't eaten since last night. I wouldn't be in this situation if my bank account didn't got closed.

My class for today starts at 4:30pm, so I went out around 12:00 noon to go to the ATM to withdraw some cash so I can buy some food. I should have my salary coming into my account. But I got disappointed as the machine did not give me any money. I tried three times, but it said my card is no longer usable. As far as I remember, I still had balance left on my card the last time I used the ATM. How come they closed my card? Was the balance too low? But there is money coming, what will happen to that transaction if the bank account is closed. Lots of worries. This is the first time it ever happened to me. I must really learn from this experience. Maybe I did not pay enough attention to the minimum balance required in my account. There's no one to blame but myself because I put up myself to this. I am the one that brought bad luck to myself. I hope I can solve this somehow.

Prelims and Midterms are over

Preliminary and midterm examinations are finally over for us. I am happily announcing that I've passed all my subjects. I don't  have such really good grades, but I didn't fail any midterm exams. That's good enough for me to keep going until I am finished.

I am so ready for the pre-finals  and finals to come. In just 2 months, the first year will finally over for me. Wow, I can't believe the second semester is about to come to an end. I will be done with my first year of college soon. I am happy and excited knowing I will be graduating in the next year, I hope so.

I think I will graduate this time. I tried so often and I cannot failed anymore. I need a life change, I don't want to go back doing the same thing I did before. All I want now is to keep digging. I want a comfortable life one day. I want to have a better job despite my situation. I'm not going to give up!

Bad weather, bad teacher

Even though it is raining here at the moment, I still want to say "Good morning to everyone here". I'm ready for school. I even woke up very early as my first subject starts at 7:30am, but I'm still here at my place waiting for the rain to stop. It is not stopping, flooding is coming up for sure.

But I'm glad we didn't have classes in CRM. My classmate told me that our CRM instructor didn't came to school. He is absent again, and then later he will probably give as reading material instead of teaching us. That's what he always do, just like the previous examinations. He gave us a handouts of 400 pages. He told us to study those handouts, but he gave us only very short time, and then a quiz. The way he teaches us is so different than other instructors we had. He could give us smaller pieces to study each day and he could explain, instead of giving us 400 pages at once without much explanation.

So many students are complaining of his teaching skills. I think he is still new to his job, so maybe that's the reason why his teaching are like that. This CRM course is not optimal for me.

Addiction to Facebook

Image thanks to Mayu Shimizu

Someone asked why my eyes are so red, and why am I losing weight. What? Really? Well, I noticed the changes of my body, but I don't really have time to mind it. I mean what can I do if that's how I'm becoming. Maybe it is school stress. I certainly get enough food. And about my eyes, they only get red when I don't have enough sleep at night. And yes, I can feel the pain sometimes when I am tired but not sleeping. My eyes turn to red become watery. Anyway I get used to it!

Some people around me always seem to notice things about me. My addiction to Facebook made me this way. I am 100% sure I got this eyes problem from using too much internet at night. Being on Facebook most of the time gives me a hard time sleeping. That's why I always have eyebags in the morning. How I wish I could stop this kind of habit! But how can I do this if I feel incomplete whenever I am not seeing stuff from my Facebook. It is really a bad addiction.

Miss Universe Philippines

There is still a lot of discussion about the Miss Universe Competition. People are disappointed that the Philippines did not win again. It seems everyone here in the Philippines still cannot get over with Miss Philippines' answers in the Q&A session. Many blame her for not speaking in Tagalog when she answered in English. I think her answers were okay, grammatically correct, maybe just that she didn't expressed it perfectly and that her answer were also short. People also wonder about why there was an interpreter to translate if she was speaking English.

To me Maxine did it well. She did wear her dresses with grace, even her swimsuit. Most people who criticize her don't even dare to wear a swimsuit. She even made it to the top six, and that is already something to be proud of. People are so judgemental, just because they think Maxine's performance didn't meet their expectations.

Of course I'm one of those who wanted her to win, but that's life, win or lose should be accepted. There is next time! Who knows how the next Miss Philippines will perform? Maybe it was just no luck this time, but next time will be more luck. Maxine Medina did well, and we should be proud of her and not criticize her.

Literacy Program in NSTP.

The exam we had in NSTP was different. Instead of answering a test paper, my group was assigned to go in a barangay to do a special task. It's called the literacy program. We gathered 30 kids in a tent owned by the barangay. Before we started with our task, we, collected money from our group so that we could buy snacks for the childrens. Not just that, we also planned something interesting for kids to see and do in the next NSTP program.

So we had someone who knows how to recycle bottles for reuse. Each one of us brought plastic bottles and scissors so we could help too. We made a pencil cases out of the bottles, and we also made some fan and other stuff. That was our midterm examination. We will continue doing the same thing by next NSTP program. Not bad, it helps us learn how to make use of our disposal, and it can help us to lower our plastic garbage, if we try this at home.

Sick Cousin

I just found out that my cousin is at stage 2 of breast cancer. I didn't know she's undergoing this illness until she had contacted me last night. She is looking for a househelp, because her husband is going back to Jeddah this coming month. She needs a househelp while she is going to a chemo therapy, and maybe an operation.

I understand her situation, as she has two little kids,  a boy and a girl that need to be taken care of. I wish I could find her a househelp as soon as possible. Her illness is a traitor, it can't be ignored. Until now I can't believe she has breast cancer. Looking at her photos in facebook, no one would think she has it. Stage 2 is already a worrying stage. I hope that she over come this, as she has childrens that needed a mother's care.

I'm so glad her husband has a job. He is been working abroad for years now. I think they have enough money to provide for her chemotherapy. I wish my cousin her recovery as soon as possible, she's only in her 30s.